oh what a tiring day..physically and also emotionally. he's not gona be back..he'll be away for 2 years..minimum one and a half years. i'm not alright,i'm not ok. i'm lost.real lost..life without him would be....i don't know. but i guess somehow i will get used to it,get used to going home alone,get used to not talking on the phone,get used to him not being by my side.someday somehow. maybe one day i'll just forget all about him..maybe. i don't feel good seeing couples on the streets,it just somehow remind me of him,remind me of us.i want him by my side. if only its all just a dream and when i wake up, he's just beside me. argh! dream on yah. alright i should be strong and i will learn how to be..maybe its a blessing in disguise...it makes me a stronger person and him a better man. i miss him..how i wish i could say that to him myself...not by letter or some other way.i want to say i miss you and he would smile at me and say i miss you too. now it doesn't seems to be the case at all...he's not real anymore.i'm gotta live on our memories...

.......i'm feeling not so good. in fact, not good at all..faking all those smiles,faking that i'm strong and stuff. i mean its tiring la...tomorrow is 30 june already..finally but then..what if..what if he'll never come back..ok or come back after 2 damn years? must be optimistic you say but who the hell can be if you were me...if its really 2 years, i guess i don't know what i'm suppose to do..some asking me to follow my heart..some say MUST wait..i don't know. i've really no idea what is right and what is wrong..maybe there's no right and wrong but then..what would be the best for me and him..i feel so...stucked. like caught in the middle lo...neither here nor there. so conclusion...he'll better be back. *sighs

yeah! my blog is finally alive! haha..but nobody knows it anyway but i don't care la..just suddenly feel like blogging.haha...having the business sofeware application now..its so goddamn boring!!! hate the teacher..hate the module. haha..everybody's doing their own stuff anyway..haha..got back most of my ica result. I didn't really do very well but then at least i pass all right??? ahaha..not all la..i mean so far...aiya whatever. haha...2 more days to 30 june. feelings all mixed up..but i do really hope for the best la..of course.haha..through this thingy i've realised that i've got quite a number of good lecturer.haha..alright alright shall stop here...tata!

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