its been such a long time since i last...shitted. Argh! sometimes i get so fed-up with my intestine. why can't they just function properly???! darn. and i think my liver is unhealthy because i read on some stupid books that constipation is a sign of an unhealthy liver cos you get constipation when your liver can't produce enough bile to burn down fast or whatever and blah blah blah and therefore leads to constipation.HAHA i have unhealthy liver. how cool can that be. and you know, my constipation problem is there since..erm..i'm a kid. and i guess my liver is very very very unhealthy. Argh! i am so going to die! haha and yes, recently i've been reading books like how to detox cos my mum says my body is full of toxic la. but...you know during the period of detoxing, you'll have to survive on fruit juices or just some very eat-already-don't-know-put-where-in-my-stomach-food lo. haha so i guess there's no need to even try to detox. blah...

should i or should i not??? maybe i should?? or maybe not??? should i buy guinea pig anot??! haha but it cost $150. its abit expensive for me you know. but i really feel like buying. argh! but if really buying, i'll still hafta buy the cage and stuff and that will cost a bomb, wouldn't it? how? tell me? tell me? haha

i'm beginning to get quite obsessed with calories counting ever since my sis taught me how. oh man! you know whats the first thing i do nowadays when i see package of food be it bread, chocolate, sweets or whatever??! i fucking look at how come calories it contains!! haha this is so not me. at least not the old me. ok perhaps the new me is desperately wanting to lose a kilo or two but...argh! i can't believe myself. but at least i'm way better than people who only survive on some weird cereals everyday.haha cereals, cereals and only cereals! hahaha

hah had kueh lapis and lau po bing for lunch. *sign how pathetic right? but never mind later going to tampines with mum..haha will have a super heavy dinner to make up for my lunch. haha mum went indonesia batam(is it spell correctly??) yesterday and erm..she bought lots of kueh lapis and koropok and some tibits la.hahaha but the kueh lapis is really nice la..from far you can smell the fragrance already.aww...i'm going to grab one now.haha. =)

ok.back.oh there's one thing really worth celebrating for-that is i just shit-ted! oh my god! i'm so damn happy can?! haha even though it was only one tiny miny weeny bit but at least still got right. hahahahaha

argh! hate the ants! of all things they go and attack my chess mooncake. Argh! i only ate one you know and now i've to throw away the whole box of mooncake.Awww..sadded. sometimes, ants are so bu zhi hao dai, if i want i can just easily destroy their home but is i don't want ok?! but now they wang er fu yi and come and eat my mooncake. and now, ants will definitely top my most hated list. haha

and sometimes i wonder, just what is wrong with my intestine??? how come even though i eat lots of fruits definitely more than some of you but i still have constipation problem?! and to add in, i drinks lots of water. its so damn unfair. you see, contipated= bloated tummy and therefore, my tummy is bloated! *sign how i envy those who can shit normally and shit at least once a day. i'll go and hide behind the pillar and laugh if i'll be able to shit once every three days. See?? i don't even hope for shitting once a day because i know if i can do that, pigs can fly.

auntie call me just now and i didn't ans her call, firstly because i'm still sleeping!! secondly because i don't feel like. I don't know what to say to her, i'm too tired explaining myself and i'm afraid i would just shout and yell at her and tell her to fuck right off if i pick up the phone. Argh, never mind.

alright, went for some mooncake shopping with mum yesterday at the taka's fair. hah and mum bought the chess mooncake for me! i don't know she could be that nice. haha maybe because i yell "eh! soooo cute!" so loud that she's pai seh not buying it or she's just plain nice la. haha bought the piglet and lau po bing!! i love lau po bing! haha

*sign if i am to use one word to describe my life now, that word would definitely be BAD. real bad. There are times when i just feel like bashing up the people who invented love. hah. i hate him, I HATE HIM!!! i used to love him, i know. I'm so sick, i'm sooooo sick of everything about him can?? but i still hafta call auntie before 16 sept. what the hell, can i just don't call?? can i ask auntie to forget about my existence? can she just forget that i'm his son's girlfriend before and barely 1 month for that. and why am i suffering soooo much now?? what the fuck. call me selfish but i really really really really wish to wash my hands off him. everything. forget about all those letters and stuff, forget about being responsible, forget about even basic manners that i should call her auntie. Argh!!!! And I HATE MYSELF! why do i hafta fall for him in the first place and get myself into this deep shit now. fuck.

i don't know why i'm feeling so..fed-up now. My mum always have some stupid plans for us, like bringing my cousin to some fun fair or bring some books for them. its like...not my aunt won't buy for them and bring her their themselves. even if my aunt can't , why can't my mum do it herself??? always making us to do this shit. I don't like children especially my cousins, i just don't know why but i really don't like them. This may sound not right cos i worked in daycare centre before but i really don't like them..i really don't like them! They're rather irritating in my opinion. and i guess i've such disliking for them is because of my, oh-so-great mother. she's always acting kind and all. buying them books and giving my aunt stuff like as if she can't afford to buy them herself. Argh!!! i'm so fed-up!

*sign just now i'm feeling fed-up and now i'm feeling sad.very very sad. those heart-breaking kind of sad. I'm just thinking about him. Auntie called janet today, i don't know..i'm just feeling like it will never gonna end, my nightmare is not gonna end and my birthday wish will never ever come true. I know since i've made my decision i musn't regret it and i didn't but i'm just suffering from the after effect of the whole thing. Like yesterday, i couldn't really enjoy my birthday because i'm always being reminded of him, wherever i go, whatever i do. he's like everywhere, he's haunting me like hell. Even the cab uncle also play the damn song he used to sing.and i always feel like crying even till now when i think of him.

I want to be happy, i just want to lead a peaceful life can? can? I thought i would be happier but apparently i'm not. Buying new clothes, doing up my nails nicely, dressing myself up will make me feel maybe happier alittle but could it really make me forget all the heart-ache?? No, its not gonna do that and i'm very sure of that. Argh!!! somebody please help me. please. I'm always smiling and laughing at the outside but i'm actually crying in the inside. I just hope that god will forgive me for all the wrong i've done in the past for rejecting guys but please, god, will you please stop punishing me??? =(

happy birthday to me~ happy birthday to me~ happy birthday to me~ happy birthday to me~ happy birthday to me~ *claps haha alright, its my birthday!!!! yeah!! hooray!! birthday meaning got ang poh money from my mum! yeah! haha but this year my mum had a card for me, those hand-made popped up card! so sweet! but one thing is its not made by her, its made by her friend. So fake but then again, i'll pretend not to know this yah? haha and erm..actually this year my birthday had already been celebrated so..today is just my birthday in title la. haha

*sign i feeling rather..don't-know-what-to-say after reading her blog. For this friend of mine, i don't know whether you will read this entry but if you happen to, i just hope that you won't be so troubled by not being able to "click" with us. I know its not your fault for being like that, this is just you yah? so erm...maybe when the sch re-opens just try to be more active in our conversation and if you're not able to come in the topics we're talking about then never mind la..there's this thing call try again next time one right? haha you have 3 years to try you know. haha and erm...there this one very big problem about you..and that is..WHY DO YOU HAVE TO WALK SO FAST???!! haha is there not a word slow in your dictionary? haha i know you will feel uncomfortable walking slowly but then the uncomfortable-ness is worth it all yah? haha and erm..seriously, don't keep all your feelings inside and not tell us because sometimes we're really thinking "what the hell in the world is she thinking about???!" so its good to tell us and be CRAZY for once. hahaha and i think that you blogging is a very good move at least now we know what you're thinking. and erm..feel free to tell us your problem yah???? =) LOVE YA!!!

*burps* oh i'm so full! haha ate Subway Sandwiches and also the spicy chicken rice set at Just Noodle. *sign i feel like i'm 1 kg heavier now! thats bad. actually wanted to eat the Sandwiches only but who knows sis wanna eat the rice so..we comprimise and ended up eating both! how sinful can we get! haha went shopping after that and i saw one really nice kong ren zhuang at topshop! i want i want!!! i'll have to save up yah. *sign why am i soooo poor??! tell me?? haha ok but i bought one black tube from Dorothy Perkins for just $13!!! haha i never know that there's such cheap and nice clothes in there untill today! i always thought its topshop pricing for all the clothes. hahahahahahaha... =)

haha i'm struggling between whether or not to watch the incredible tales now. should i or should i not??? how??? haha the lunar 7th month is over so i guess it would be alright to watch yah?? but is it a little too late now cos the show had already started for 5 min? hahaha i don't know. From my study room here, i heard my elder sis said somethings like"Eeee..yer.." haha damn. I'm always so indecisive. alright, i think i shouldn't watch yah?

haha alright, oh went suntec yesterday to celebrate my birthday in advance with my family. Ate dinner in the japanese restaurant. haha mum wasn't very happy with that deicision because she doesn't like japanese food and also..she thinks that the price is abit too expensive for the food offered. So as expected, while we're having our dinner, she went like "nice meh?? i also know how to cook." and also " i think its abit too thick, not nice la" hahaha but actually all of us except my mum and erm..maybe my dad thinks its so nice! haha oh ya..my mum actually bought some huat kway( also called fa gao in chinese) and crackers and some pathetic popian costing her $50. hahahahahaha imagine that??? she bought it in the fun fair which is said to be a charity fun fair la. but its rather kind of her also la. if i were her, i would have use the money to buy my french manicure kit instead. =)

alright, here i am sitting alone..yes alone =( in my study room typing away. Mum and sis have all gone to dreamland. I can't sleep even though i feel like. Its funny la. haha but its abit scary sitting alone here though because...because its scary!!!! haha i don't know what am i talking about also because i don't know what to blog about! haha alright, hmm...let me think....

ok, as janet suggest, i shall blog about why she's still single. hahahaha okay, let me see. She's not categorized into the Cannot make it gategory but neither is she the wah so damn pretty group( janet, pls don't kill me! =) ) yah so she's above average(in my opinion of cos) and yah she's got quite a slim figure but sometimes just feel that its abit too slim.hmm...she's not hard to get i guess but sometimes i really wonder.. WHY IS SHE STILL SINGLE!!???!! haha i mean even i can't figured that out. GUYS out there, open your eyes!!! haha oh oh oh i guess i know the reason why. is it because guys goes for girls with BIG boobs??? like C onwards??? *signs "janet, no wonder you're still single la." hahahahah aiyo, seriously i don't know why and i'm sure janet don't know why too. maybe if any one of you know the ans can tell me and her??? hahaha

why is people wishing me happy birthday yesterday when my birthday is next week???? they wrote testimonials and even send msg to wish me happy birthday. Is it because of my friendster profile??? haha i guess i've put the wrong date yah. but anyway thanks for those who had already wish me happy birthday because yesterday is also my birthday la but is chinese lunar birthday. So i guess its also not wrong to wish me happy birthday. hahaha For this year birthday, i only wish for one thing, ok maybe two thing. First, I want to forget him and auntie and live everday with joy and laughter. Second, I want him to be happy. *sign i really hope that my wish can be granted. God!!! will you please grant my wish???? say yes??? =)

I want to have a pet!!! seriously, having a pet is good. I miss jiajia, coco, aiai,whiteky,brownie,snowball,boy boy,blackie..did i miss out any?? haha i hope i didn't. I miss them all. Now that they're not around theres no more squeezing of their fats and trying to style their hair to make them look more like dog but hamster. No more putting them in that small pink ball to let them run around my house and go "hahaha! so cute!" when they bang onto the wall. haha aww...so much fun yah. And of cos no more disturbing them when they're sleeping and stuff. Aiyo, i want a pet!!! but this time, no more hamster for me though hamster makes a really good pet.hmm...i want a guinea pig!!!! sounds cute yah. and its so much bigger than hamster so it will be easier to carry and also easier to style their hair. =) any kind soul out there??? hahahaha

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8 Sep 88
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